As I reminiscing about my nurtured life, it’s been formidable for me to recognize my situation even though I’m the one who make my decision on what was going on in my life time. the incredulous thoughts begun to bothered in my innocent mind, it shrouded by a boon and bane, rancor and a stigma of my all wrongdoing assuages my precious life and precocious skills that was given by my omnipotent master.
( MY CHILDHOOD LIFE)
The world too quit, the stars still its shining, the tranquil of the night was equanimous and its solemnly brought me in this complicated world. My mother's suffered in order to saw me in this world.I was born on November 13, 1988. which my mother gave me a birth name, junsidh mendoza jr. i was in the 4th son of my family, a resident of La fortuna, Mlang, north cotabato here in my beloved country Philippines
In my childhood, I had friends who made me daily happy they were: Arthur, Ivan Rey and bonnie. We had a good relationship and our banding’s were much more as a brother. Every time we met, we played our favorite game and we were all in one team.No one could separated us. We were happy and we made our days remarkable and more memorable, we made sense of these by fishing, swimming in a river and getting fresh vegetable near in foraging area.We have our own ambition in life, a dream to make people better as an individual. We had a different insight. But no matter what the task our friendship was broken when my parents decided to live in makilala particularly in baranggay guangan.
In my childhood, I had friends who made me daily happy they were: Arthur, Ivan Rey and bonnie. We had a good relationship and our banding’s were much more as a brother. Every time we met, we played our favorite game and we were all in one team.No one could separated us. We were happy and we made our days remarkable and more memorable, we made sense of these by fishing, swimming in a river and getting fresh vegetable near in foraging area.We have our own ambition in life, a dream to make people better as an individual. We had a different insight. But no matter what the task our friendship was broken when my parents decided to live in makilala particularly in baranggay guangan.
In that aforementioned place, was a place of my mother side where she had been there since in her childhood and it was unexpected decision that we transferred in that place.I didn't say farewell to all of my friends there in LA Fortuna, I was guilty to myself, I don't like the place there and I was cried.
Time had passed. I felt lonely, I was unhappy in that place I couldn't enjoyed myself, my mind begun to rebelled and I want to leave my family because they couldn't understand my feelings and emotion I was young that time wanting for enjoyment.When I looked up at the end of my wild and conscious mind i knew already what’s going on, I tend to play some things and i want my life meaningful.
when i'm walking going to our farmland, i saw a by pitching water in the well of watershed. he looked at me and he asked if i am new there? , i replied "yes". he asked my full name again and i'm glad that he kn my father, he told me that my father went lastnight on their house met his father. he added, that my father told him about me, i was stunned for the amazement that we were same age on the 13th day of November. he invited me to hunted bird in the forest on the afternoon.
when i'm walking going to our farmland, i saw a by pitching water in the well of watershed. he looked at me and he asked if i am new there? , i replied "yes". he asked my full name again and i'm glad that he kn my father, he told me that my father went lastnight on their house met his father. he added, that my father told him about me, i was stunned for the amazement that we were same age on the 13th day of November. he invited me to hunted bird in the forest on the afternoon.
I went home early to prepare food for the lunch of my father. I was surprised when my new fried jun was in our house, he help me bringing foods in our nipahouse where my father worked and cultivated our cornfield. we get fresh fruits in thier farm, hunting birds in the forest, throwing stone and run away in the hillside of the mountain. we both happy collecting cassava and coconut fruit. we seize our days by sharing our likes and dislikes, we became closed friend to each other.
My friend introduced his friends to me; Daniel and Madel, they were native people. in the first place, I had difficulty to communicated with them because they were spoken on their own vernacular but then, im trying to understand what they are talking. through time to time my friend jun help me to understand their dialect. sometimes they laughed for my responsed and the gestured the way i interacted with them. Lately I learned to Love thier culture and adopted their dialect.
A month after, I got up early and fixed everything in my room, go outside to fell the land breeze. the morning was bright, the water cold, the fresh air blew around me and turned me to fell solace. i couldnt imagined of what sort of day that i felt in that moment. i thought I'm dreamin', how beautiful is the morning. when i step down in our yard, the flowers bloomed sweetly. their blossom just like the bloom of sunrise; fresh and pleasant. I run to the valley saw beautiful things in the vastness. " it is the most beautiful thing that i ever seen!", It's awesome! i retorted. the fogs covered the surroundings and its droplets made me suitable to relaxed, its cold penetrates on my skin, moment by moment it lost until the sun comes. i praised God because he gave me a wonderful day, how great is our God!, I thank him for his blessings he showered upon me. i went to the river and swun. I fell much a wonderful day, a perfect day!. i can't beleived on that day, i thought "Its a new day and new life". while I'm taking a bath, my friend jun coming and smiled greated me a Happy Birthday!.
( A HEART OF FRIENDSHIP)
True friendship is not easy to find, its been formidable for us to recognized whose our true friends. we are unique individual wanting for friends to matched our personality. may be we have a friends who take care the good relationship of friendship, but what is the real meaning of it? it is true that friendship will still remain forever and ever as long as we will still alive? no one can break the relationship of friendship unless each one of you are loyal and honest? or how can you react if someone will tell you that your best friend is your best enemy? how can you deal other people to follow what you want if they're against of what you're doing? its a big deal right? if not so, what is your way to win people's heart of friendship? well, we have our own pattern to link them in our journey. sharing and knowing each other is a threat of friendship, even you were met in particular place, social gatherings, parties as well as in our social networking to connect people and knowing their names is a sort of friendship.
people wanted to have enjoyment in life, but when the time that we become happy?. experience and explore things in the world for the sake of fun is one of the factor that we need to considered in order for you to satisfied our needs and the will of our flesh we are looking forward for betterment of our life, adventure life with full of fantasy as we speculated at the end will have a happy ending. life is full of surprises that challenge ourselves to deal its task and tend to play without knowing the risk.
As I ventured mylife to live with enthusiasm, its widden my interest to become a friendly person. i valued and tresured my freinds by showing them that they are part of my life.
My friend introduced his friends to me; Daniel and Madel, they were native people. in the first place, I had difficulty to communicated with them because they were spoken on their own vernacular but then, im trying to understand what they are talking. through time to time my friend jun help me to understand their dialect. sometimes they laughed for my responsed and the gestured the way i interacted with them. Lately I learned to Love thier culture and adopted their dialect.
A month after, I got up early and fixed everything in my room, go outside to fell the land breeze. the morning was bright, the water cold, the fresh air blew around me and turned me to fell solace. i couldnt imagined of what sort of day that i felt in that moment. i thought I'm dreamin', how beautiful is the morning. when i step down in our yard, the flowers bloomed sweetly. their blossom just like the bloom of sunrise; fresh and pleasant. I run to the valley saw beautiful things in the vastness. " it is the most beautiful thing that i ever seen!", It's awesome! i retorted. the fogs covered the surroundings and its droplets made me suitable to relaxed, its cold penetrates on my skin, moment by moment it lost until the sun comes. i praised God because he gave me a wonderful day, how great is our God!, I thank him for his blessings he showered upon me. i went to the river and swun. I fell much a wonderful day, a perfect day!. i can't beleived on that day, i thought "Its a new day and new life". while I'm taking a bath, my friend jun coming and smiled greated me a Happy Birthday!.
( A HEART OF FRIENDSHIP)
True friendship is not easy to find, its been formidable for us to recognized whose our true friends. we are unique individual wanting for friends to matched our personality. may be we have a friends who take care the good relationship of friendship, but what is the real meaning of it? it is true that friendship will still remain forever and ever as long as we will still alive? no one can break the relationship of friendship unless each one of you are loyal and honest? or how can you react if someone will tell you that your best friend is your best enemy? how can you deal other people to follow what you want if they're against of what you're doing? its a big deal right? if not so, what is your way to win people's heart of friendship? well, we have our own pattern to link them in our journey. sharing and knowing each other is a threat of friendship, even you were met in particular place, social gatherings, parties as well as in our social networking to connect people and knowing their names is a sort of friendship.
people wanted to have enjoyment in life, but when the time that we become happy?. experience and explore things in the world for the sake of fun is one of the factor that we need to considered in order for you to satisfied our needs and the will of our flesh we are looking forward for betterment of our life, adventure life with full of fantasy as we speculated at the end will have a happy ending. life is full of surprises that challenge ourselves to deal its task and tend to play without knowing the risk.
As I ventured mylife to live with enthusiasm, its widden my interest to become a friendly person. i valued and tresured my freinds by showing them that they are part of my life.
( YOUTHFUL LIFE; A GAME OF LIVING)
Youth is a time to expressed ourselves, a time to know our personality who really we are, a time for confusion, a time of imagination and time for enjoyment. it is not the time of life. its a state of mind. its temper the will. a quality of the imagination. a vigor of the emotion. a predominance of courage over timidity of our appetite over love to ease. when I was in the stage of adolescence, a lot of things changed in my character especially the decisions that i made of. worry. doubt. self-distrust. fear and disappear, these bow of the head and turn growing spirit back to dust. whether 60 or 16 there is every being of heart the love of wonder, the sweet amazement of the star and star like things and thoughts, the unwanted challenged of event, the unfailing child like appetite for what next, and the joy of the game of living. we are as young as our faith, as old as our doubt. as young as our self-confidence, as old as our hope. as old as our despair so long as our heart receive message of beauty, cheer, courage, grandeur and power from nature of the earth, from puberty, from man and from infinite so long as we are young.
We know that life must still go on in this complicated world, we need to overcome the struggles that blocks in our way. Failures will never hinder one to pursue his dream; dreams are mere dreams if we will not strife to reach them.
Life is bivouac but sublime it means it is temporary settle men but pure, just clutched it in the right way. We must guard against in everything around us because our enemy still looking for someone to catch us in his net. He makes an opportunity to have cracked in our life and that’s the time that he will destroy this innocence life.
Many of us had experience that comes in our life time, it is serendipitous that we encountered. Sometimes we need to sacrifice in order for us to achieve our goal.
Every day there are changes, a time to be born and a time to die, it is true and it is in the scripture. People hide...people always make a lie and people still deny what is the truth, and where is the secret.I am just a man wearing this meaningful life; I need friends to comfort me and to lean on in times of circumstances. I need people to understand who am I, but how can I release my feelings if I always refused the concern of the others. I am a pretender I always pretend myself that I can solve my problems alone, I want to escape these feelings that I know it can harm my spiritual stamina that’s why I want to find my friends to overcome these feelings.
It was a days before that I walked in a tranquil street, I and my shadow were walking. I felt lonely and I’m longing for my friends, I need them that moment but no could comfort me, I talked to my shadow in order to have conversation.After of I expressing my feelings and emotions I realizes what the life is? Stop for a moment to think wider, until the time that I came in the cross road were many people were walking along in my way.
I have seen d happiness n there face every time they looked at me and smiled me.They were enjoying for walking together with their friends and they invite me to go w/ them and I grabbed the opportunity to know more about their personality.
I was happy that they accept me and be a part of their groups. They taught me to do things like this and do things like that.I did all these things w/o knowing that I passed my limitation but I was awakened one day that they betrayed me.
They left me n my shadow and make a distance away form me I supposed that I find my true friendship but I was wrong
.And now I’m still alone in my shadow looking for someone who will help me in times of circumstances and loneliness in my journey but I never bog down instead of that I stand up and make a move to find another friend and now I found it through the presence of GOD.
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| junsidh's |
I compare myself in a colorful kite as a meaningful life because as a kite fly high in the sky, it seems to be very interesting and beautiful. The kite flies high through the wind in the sky that blew the kite. The kite has the characteristics that may defer to a person, very strong and very interesting. As a kite there is a rope that bears the kite which a connection between the kite and the person who holds itAs a kite, the person who holds it is God and the rope is my faith to him and the kite is representing as me. The wind that blew me is the trial that comes in my journey the tails and the wings that bear the kite are the person who inspired me. And I represent myself as a kite and that’s me facing the struggles that blocks in my way.
